I love to give gifts, but I often feel uncomfortable receiving them. As I child I had no problem with it and I would rip through my presents in no time, but as I got older I noticed I had trouble when people gave me gifts or compliments or offered help during tough times. I knew I always wanted these things, but when they were given to me I felt weird inside.
Giving is different. I love to give gifts or help or compliments. I love it when I can make someone smile. I love to brighten someone’s day. I think it is easier to give than it is to receive. I also feel this way when it comes to intimate relationships. I feel awkward when my partner extends love. Sometimes I don’t even notice it. I don’t notice when they are doing their best to give to me, because it seems their best isn’t good enough, it can’t compare to my best or to what I give in the relationship. It makes for hard times and animosity.
So this year on Christmas I went out of my way to very much notice all the love that was coming my way, sometimes by way of a gift I got to rip open, but more by way of the love and intention behind the gift. Whenever I thought I wanted more I said to myself, “accept this!” They are giving you their best and it is enough and I was grateful for it. I opened myself up to receive and I was ever so happy!
So how are you at receiving?